It has a tendency to change the external in subtle (yet substantial) ways until one day we wake up from an afternoon nap and realize everything is different. Unlike the people on dating sites who say they don’t want drama and really do, I am really not interested in drama anymore.
It used to help distract me from my pain and fill the emptiness.
If you have a wacky theory that cars grow from trees, your teacher might invalidate your theory by taking you on a tour of an auto factory.I needed excitement to get through my days and weeks of pain.So there was always something to keep my mind spinning and my pulse quickened. My business has moments because working with clients in recovery is never without excitement as emotions and memories come and go. It’s real and it’s meaningful and it’s actually accomplishing something (even though it doesn’t always feel like it).My children definitely provide drama in the form of temper tantrums and behavior “stuff”, but I know they are really good kids in the scheme of things.And when the adults in my life call me up with drama, it just doesn’t affect me like it used to.As adults, BPD individuals adopt the characteristics of the invalidating environment in which they grow up.